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2008-10-20T21:18:00.001-07:00

get my livejournal from me if u want!
wont be posting here anymore!

2008-10-20T05:45:00.000-07:00

thank you bro (:

2008-09-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

im working at heeren's (downstairs) nydc!

come visit if you're free!
: D

2008-09-16T02:51:00.000-07:00

been very lazy nowadays to update..

o lvls approaching so it means time to study.

anyway guys go watch prison break.

its like the nicest show over the past few decades or sth.

not exagerating (did i spell it right)!

yeah.. i dont know what to say anymore.

take care my friends.

woot aston villa beat tottenham at white hart lane.

fuck off tottenham! : /

2008-08-29T05:24:00.000-07:00

im a kobe fan for life! : D

2008-08-28T07:01:00.000-07:00

just a random short post..

few days back.. i reached home at morning 8am after a night out.

so i bathed and bla bla till 830am and went to bed.

when i woke up, it was dark and i supposed it was 8pm or something.

but guess what.. it was real quiet, so i checked the time..

4.10am

i was like 'WTF!'

so i checked the date, it was already tuesday.

and so i wasted the whole of a monday sleeping,

and missing my 3 meals.

funny right. and the most wtf thing is i din wake up for toilet,

and my aunt dint wake me up for dinner and stuffs.

hibernating!

2008-08-12T12:38:00.000-07:00

hi.. just a little short post before i go to bed..

i feel like im a jinx.. lol
i caused like 2 injuries to a friend of mine within like 2 days?

firstly.. i was playing soccer with him,

and then he was right infront of me, and boom, i kicked the ball into his face.
and his specs caused a scar on his forehead.

1 day later, we went swimming,

and i asked him to demostrate a dive for me to see.

and crash.. his head hit the bottom of the pool and half of his teeth got chipped off.

fucking sian.

i dont even knw what to say.

apologies seem gay enough to me.

but.. its like.. what can i do about it.

sorry is all i can say?

and weili spend like 135 bucks to mend his teeth.

yea.. i knw some people out there would think i deserve to get scolded or what.

but it aint wrong isnt it.

i deserve to be!

im sorry friend!

2008-08-03T05:41:00.000-07:00

fkingggg cute! : D

2008-07-30T04:52:00.000-07:00

this post is dedicated for my cousin.

congrats on being the top, in fact not top, is NO.1 NTU PhD graduate 2008!

its like.. OH MY FUCK.

i read the newspaper.. i saw all NUS graduates, and only 1 from NTU among the 10+,

and thats none other than my cousin!

yeah yeah.. congrats.

after like.. 17 years of study..

i should jiayou myself too - -''

okay, thats all, bye!

2008-07-27T09:20:00.000-07:00

back from chris daughtry's performance at city hall.

it was amazing i have to say!

crowd going wild.. heavy blasting music..

its been long since ive experienced that.

anyway daughtry and his band are simply amazing!

the lead guitarist, drummer and everyone else is just great.

sound system and bla bla rocks too.

daughtry performed many of his songs,

and of course his hits including,

its not over,

over you,

feels like tonight,

used to,

and of course his no.1 hit single, home.

yeah well, thank xueyi for giving me the free ticket to go catch him live.

and also thank qh for accompanying to go. Lol.

okay yeah, thats all.

nights.

2008-07-25T22:55:00.000-07:00

forcing myself to give it up.

2008-07-23T05:25:00.000-07:00

blog blog.

did something extraordinary today.

i went ntuc and buy loads of junk food and drinks home.

been ages since i went there?

never mind.

the thought of school tomorrow makes me fucking sick.

recently keep pon school.

went to cck's newyork newyork to ask for job this afternoon.

oh for god sake, do i really look so old,

that for this week already like 3 people say i look like 20?

never mind..

oh man, they are only hiring full time workers..

and whats up with the cheeky look the nyny manager and stuffs give to me,

when i walked in and ask for a job.

Lol.

cy's bday in a week.

gonna make something 'special' for him.

sure laugh my ass off!

and before i go,

anyone want watch dark knight with me!

it looks so nice!

2008-07-15T05:48:00.000-07:00

why is everyone feeling so shit?

why is everyone getting so fucked up?

sigh.. after reading weili's july15th post,

i decided to blog abit.

so here goes.

i dont know, but somehow i really feel,

life holds no meaning at all.

why the fuck are we living anyway,

we gain nothing from it.

nothing ever gets better,

and nothing will ever get better.

well, everything is just hell.

bullfuck.. fuck life!

im not emo or angry or sad.

im just stating facts! fuck life!

even the smallest things are in my way.

ytd morning when i was preparing to go school,

fucked up weather is so fucking hot im sweating like a dog.

and guess what, i spend 10mins looking for my fucking shoes.

fucking hell.. that makes me sweat even MORE.

and when i found it,

my maid go clean my shoe.

and when my shoe goes though cleaning, it becomes fucking hard to wear.

so i spend like another 5mins wearing them, making me sweat MORE.

i mean, simple things in life,

are also getting in my way.

WHAT THE FUCK.

and when im thinking why are these shits happening,

well, i guess it happens to everyone.

so.. bottomline of all these, is to just fuck it.

T___________T

and when weili thinks,

"yeah, my day aint any better",

i will say,

"me too buddy".

2008-07-01T23:47:00.000-07:00

im feeling stressed or what..

firstly, my piano lessons.

my teacher getting real pissed by me already.

cause i keep missing lessons and not practising..

game lah, im a grade 6 student now i cant even play a grade 5 piece properly.

piece of shit..

and os are coming or what..

so called my final chance to go into poly..

die die must make it..

having bad days..

BAD DAYS!

argh.. damn it.

sorry everyone!

2008-06-30T02:39:00.001-07:00

freak..
ok whatever im gonna say below is so true..

and im not kidding!

im not scared either, Lol.

but im just confused why all these are happening.

someone please 'enlighten' me?

im sure you guys remember the post where i got 'possessed'.

okay, seriously, im quite exposed to this kinda things since young.

i remember once when im living alone,

my computer black-ed out and all i can hear from my headset,

is screeching sound,

and suddenly, a white figure crawled into my dad's room.

that time i wasnt even scared im just freaked out..

so i went check it out and told myself it was a illusion.

so recently, im very exposed to all these?

i dont want to mention the past post again..

but ever since i got that experience,

delwin told me a few days later he got that experience too.

almost the same one as mine.

so i was telling him it was just out imagination,

or maybe it was because we're too tired.

however, he and me insisted it was too real to be a dream.

yesterday,

at 4am, i dreamt of qh being sucked away by some force (not delwin)..

delwin is in the dream too, he is near the force.

a very wierd dream lah, cant remember much.

suddenly i heard my fan coming out wierd noises,

like dog howling?

so i was quite affected, thus i went to toilet to wash my face..

when i came back to my room, i was reading my msges,

and saw delwin smsing me at 1.40am saying he kena that 'thing' again.

wtf i was like.. 'wtf'?

so nevermind, i went to sleep and during morning i asked delwin again.

he said initially he dreamt of me going near a red figure,

and then he kena paralyzed already..

WHAT THE FUCK!?

in my dream, qh is being sucked away,

while delwin is like the force pulling qh away.

in delwin's dream, im going near a red figure.

and on the same night, me and him have a coincidental dream.

and guess what?

delwin nose bleed in morning,

my teeth bleed in the morning.

is this some kind of.. dream prophecy?

freak. really freak.

nvm, i knw nothing will happen to us.

i keep forcing myself to believe its just our mind doing tricks on us..

seriously i need an answer.

so whoever can help me, just tell me whats going on.

byebyebyebyebye!

2008-06-24T09:27:00.001-07:00

o levels approaching soon..

retaking 2 subjects this time round.

english and combined humanities!

if im able to get a c5 for my humans,

and even fail my eng.. i will be able to make it to poly.

been telling weili.. imagine go SP, can find him after sch,

bla bla bla..

this time round,

its gonna be a turning point,

im not gonna imagine anymore,

i will promise myself that this time round,

i can and i will enter poly!
;D

2008-06-21T01:29:00.000-07:00

im gonna get a job,
make my life fufilling,
change for the better,
and hope for the best.

to my dear friends out there who are facing difficulties,
hang on, everything will be fine.
tomorrow will be a better day.
have a little faith, believe that a rainbow will always appear after rain(:

wont be posting frequently already.
tired.. want to get some serious rest.
and also.. i really need to practice self control.
till then!

2008-06-17T04:21:00.000-07:00

changed a new skin.

thanks to candice for telling me how to edit the date ;D

nothing happened recently lah..

damn bored!!

watched euro 2008 germany against austria yesterday.

boring shit can..

1-0 match, whats more the goal is a free kick.

- -''

and 1 more thing before i go..

im HAPPY!

P/s: i miss you!

2008-06-14T08:46:00.000-07:00

went swimming with delwin, qh and weili yesterday.
im telling you, its the most fucking funny day in my life ever.
really laughed until my stomach hurts like hell - -''
all thanks to delwin LOL.

so we were like in the pool, qh brought along a pair of goggles,
i asked him to throw it far away and let me weili and delwin go find it.
so he threw it like quite far away, and we swam towards the direction.
sadly we couldnt find the goggles - -'' wtf!
so qh is damn sian-ed cause the goggles belonged to his cousin,
so i already began laughing at our stupidity already..
after a LONG time, weili found it! claps~ lol
we're so damn glad that he found it, and at the very moment he found it,
the waves comes and theres super lot of people in the pool.
guess what delwin did,
he threw the goggles into the pool again. WTF!

straight after he threw, he gave the 'hero' look and dived into the waters to search for it.
to no avail.
LOL.
dumb fag, he came back to us begging us to help him look for it.
i was laughing like hell with qh already,
and after awhile, weili found it.
damn zai sia weili.

so i dared delwin to drop the goggles in between the 4 of us,
guess what he did,
he thew the goggles fucking high up in the air and it dropped into the pool a distance from us.
WTF!!
this time round i just couldnt take it anymore and was laughing my ass off.
weili just feel damn betrayed that he helped delwin found it twice and he threw it again into the pool.
damnnnnn funny lah.
but then, weili found it the 3rd time.
fucking zai lah weili.. haha

alright so after swimming we went eat and watch 'the happening'
quite a interesting show, recommend you guys to go catch it.
going off already, bye!

2008-06-08T23:16:00.000-07:00

okay this motivated me alot.
tracy mcgrady aka tmac,
alltime favourite nba allstar.
look at this sick video,
greatest comeback in nba history!
impossible is nothing!

duncan can no longer dominate in the inside like he used to.
parker can no longer drop the ball into the hoop.
bowen can no longer guard star players.
ginoblii is growing white hair.
goodbye san antonio!

2008-06-08T07:36:00.000-07:00

3 more days to holidays!!
went watch 'what happened in vegas' just now..
it was a average show,
or should i say above average? haha.

ok the show's got my favourite actor ashton kutcher and cameron diaz as the main actor and actress.
ashton was a failure in life.. as shown in the movie.
lazy, easily give up, never succeed in almost everything he does.
even his own father fired him from his company - -''
cameron on the other hand, was a failure in relationships,
dumped by his fiancee when she planned out a birthday surprise for him on that very day infront of everyone..

so both of them decided to go to las vegas for a holiday to relax and have fun.
they met after a gay incident.. and on the night they met they have sex.
during the morning when they woke up,
they realised they've done something very wrong and they thus quarreled with one another and sort of 'broke up' with the other party.
so cameron left this 25cents on the jackpot machine and stomped off in fury,
while ashton playfully slot the coin into the machine..
and..
ching ching ching!
jackpot 3million US dollars!!

so they both fought for the money,
each party saying the money was theirs because the coin rightfully belong to cameron,
but it was ashton who sloted in the coin and pull the handle.
they fought all the way to court and they judge thus froze the money for 6mths and sentenced them to a 'compulsory' marriage if they want the money after 6 months.
so they are forced to live under one roof,
and tried all sorts of methods to backstab the other party and get the full amount of 3million dollars after 6 mths,
other than the 1.5million if they split among them after 6mths.
however, they begin to fell in love with one another along the way.
but, towards the end of the 6mths, cameron misunderstood ashton and during the hearing,
which is the end of the 6mths, cameron gave up her 1.5million share,
and only wanted a divorce with ashton..
but after that, ashton became a matured man, hardworking and stuffs,
went to look for cameron and proposed to her once again,
and of course, which she agreed to.

although this seems too lovey dovey for the real world now,
funny how fate works huh?
a simple trip to las vegas for a break,
can turn out for a strong relationship like this.
but yeah, its just a show lah.
hahaha, shall go off already(:

2008-05-31T00:04:00.000-07:00

30th may 08, certainly a day for me to remember..

invited lots of friends to my place for my bday party.

really enjoyed the company of you guys..

thanks for making my 17th bday such a memorable one.

love you guys lots.

received lots of presents too!

thanks felicia for the shirt, its very nice(:

thanks qh (and those who shared with him) for the slipper. LOL its very nice! hahaha.

thanks esther and jenny for the shirt too!

thanks weili, xueyi and agnes thanks for the spongebob boxers and shirt! :X

thanks cy and gang for the ORC figurine. wtf! LOL. thanks anyway, its nice.

thanks my dad for the fred perry t.

thanks my uncle for the new acer lcd flat screen monitor.

thanks my family members for the angbaos which total up to $200+

once again, thanks to everyone!

recently have been very busy with everything..

really need lots of time.

i really wanna buy time to do what i want to.

trying very hard to get back onto my feet again,

ever since i fell down on sec3.

i know my friends will be there to support me.

but i'll stand up again soon,

i'll definitely make it to poly some day.

i'll definitely get what i want some day.

give me more time, to prove myself again.
i'll never be the same person who gives up easily again.

thanks guys, for having confidence that i can do it.

really appreciate your care and concern for me(:

sometimes things are just meant to be.

if its not meant to be, no matter how hard u try,

it will never be.

the harder you try, the deeper the hurt.

theres never whether you're good enough for it,

only whether it will be worth it.

thanks delwin.

but i'll not give up.

i know it will be worth it.

i'll follow my feelings.

been a long post, shall go off already.

decided to open up my blog again! - -''

see you guys!

2008-05-25T08:34:00.000-07:00

back from jeremy's house. his birthday party today.
well actually its yesterday but he hosted his party at his place today.
he's got the same birthday as jing^^

yesterday went to jing's bday party at downtown.
met up with cy, went town and get a beanie for her.
that ass delwin slept late and thus it ended up me and cy waiting DAMN LONG for him.
hahaha. jing's bday party is fun..
altho me cy delwin is the only 3 guys.
others are all her female classmates.
so ended up chatting non-stop till late night, around 1am and we cabbed to delwin's place.
went home in the morning.

woke up in the afternoon today and off the jloh's place!
jloh rocks lah! Lol.
many friends came and we had lots of fun..
jloh is rich and magniminous (is it spelled this way?) lah.
he always ordered lots of food, pizzas, kfc everytime we visit his place.
and HAAGEN DAZ! XD
his fridge is full of them. wow wow wow.
i dabao-ed 1 tub home with me too. hahaha.

so we cut his cake at around 9pm.
a big big durian cake.
taupok-ed him too. hohoho.
and of course, cake-smashed his face too. hahaha.
took a few pictures and shortly after that went home..
thanks for being a great host jloh (:

2008-05-14T04:28:00.001-07:00

had a VERY VERY VERY bad experience today morning,
perhaps one of the worst ones in my life ever..
really hope it wont happen to me again.
for what i am about to type below, i am not exaggerating or whatsoever.
just want to share my experience with my friends
and give some advice on what to do IF it ever happens to my friends.

i remember woking up at around 4.50,
and thus i pressed by handphone to see the time,
and went back to sleep.
turned and faced the wall, and after 5mins or so,
i felt someone walking into my room.
expecting it to be my aunt or maid or whoever it is,
i ignored it and went back to sleep.
2secs later, i felt a very strong presence once again.
i was about to turn around to see what it is, when it happened to me.

i was paralyzed just when i moved my head a inch towards the door.
the ghost(which i am not afraid to say it is anymore),
surpressed by whole body and pin me against my bed.
my mouth was twitched towards my right side
and i can see from the side of my eye,
silverish cloud emerging from my body(which i supposed is my soul).

really wanted to shout and scream for help,
but my paralyzed body failed me, especially when i couldnt scream at all.
after 5 secs or so, my body and my mind was shutting down,
i was really really weak and desperate then,
and felt like my body is going to give me up anytime.
just when it is coming to the worst, i remembered saying in my heart,

"please leave me alone, i am only a 17years old boy."

and immediately after that, my body was free again,
and i immediately jumped off from my pillow.
i stared towards my door for around 10secs,
and finally gathered enough courage to walk to the bathroom to wash my face. went back to sleep shortly afterwards.

in the morining, my malay teacher said my face colour is very bad,
so i told him my experience.
he said in malay, it was some sort of wandering ghosts which i can sense his/her presence,
thus it attempted to suck my soul out of my body.
luckily, i was able to plead for its mercy and it let me go.

you may say its a cramp, a dream or whatever it is.
seriously, i may sound damn dramatic or exaggerating,
but this is serious, to all my friends, if it ever happen to you, remember to do what i did..
after this fucking experience i finally know,
why some people are so strong on their stand that ghosts exists in this world.

2008-05-13T04:15:00.000-07:00

nothing much happen.. everyday same routine..
go school come back sleep go school again tomorrow.
but i'll just update for the sake of it.
recently having gay dreams.. for consecutive days.
i shall name some of them out (for those which i can remember).

got once.. i dreamt of me and my friends,
chunyong.. and some other random friends playing basketball,
on the third or fourth floor of a SHOPPING MALL -_-''
then play play play, chunyong attempted a layup,
and BOOM, he fell from the 4th floor, LOL.
and in the dream, it was very realistic lah,
i can feel myself trembling and so scared i dont even dare look down. LOL.

okay second one, i dreamt of me and my friends, chunyong AGAIN LOL.
we were playing catching, and out of nowhere came out this tower sort of thinggy.
so cy ran up to the 2nd floor to prevent being catched by me,
and BOOM, he fell from the 2nd floor again LOL!
and again, in the dream i was damn afraid to look down.
LOL.

cy must be damn sad, me dreaming of him dying everytime.
HAHAHA.
okay-_-''
dreams are gay.

long day tomorrow, shall go off already, bye.

2008-04-27T22:02:00.000-07:00

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

2008-04-26T07:00:00.000-07:00

went watch doomsday with qh and lewis just now.
well, i have to say its a nice show, gore scenes and unique fighting scenes.
its about scotland being infected with this disease, without any cure, and many people dying from it.
so the border of scotland is surrounded by these walls that quarantine those infected from the outside world.

and after many many years, a team is set into the quarantined area to find the 'survivors' in the dead city, because cameras captured some survivors still in the city.
the reason they wanna do this is because the disease is believed to have spread beyond the walls, and they're trying to find how those survivors survived the disease.

so, the team was set to go.
however they discovered, babarians now roam scotland.
soon many members of the team were killed, and many things happened..
wierd thing is how the barbarians get food, and electricty for concerts, and even POLICE cars.
wtf right? -_-''

ok, never mind, maybe you guys should go watch it, so i shant continue how the story goes.

just had some thoughts in mind that were bothering me.
whatever i typed below is NOT aiming anyone or refering to anybody.
just some random thoughts of mine i wanna type it out.

girls often feel that guys are hard to come by, and stuffs.
but MOST of the time, when i see a guy treating a girl nice, the girl take advantage of it and mistreat the guy.
and when the guy does a small little wrong, the girl feel the guy hasnt done enought.
they expect the most and the best out from the guys,
but they dont expect themselves to give the guys their best.

whenever a guy does a small little wrong thing,
they remember it for a lifetime.
they dont remember the times when the guy treated them well.
right from their mouth, they said guys changes.
but have they reflected and see what causes the guy's change?
maybe its themselves?

i really hate and despise gays.
wonder how the fuck they can like, or love someone of their gender.
but now i understand why, although i still despise them.
its because, only guys can understand, and know what guys needs.
a female can never understand a guy totally.

i dont want sunshine nor rain.
i dont want to be at home nor outside.
i dont want to be alone nor with anyone.
i dont want to be awake or asleep.
i dont feel tired nor energetic.
i dont feel hungry nor full.
i dont know what i want afterall.
guess what i wanted is a sleep that never allows me to wake up.
isnt that great?
entering a sweetest dream, and never realising it was a dream afterall.

2008-04-21T02:04:00.001-07:00

decided to blog once again
-_-''
out of pure boredom.
but this time i guess it will be a private blog..opened to my friends, or rather, close friends only.

everyone's so busy with school work and stuffs recently..and i feel so bored and lonely.
sounds gay buy yeah. school has been good for me so far, dint make any enemies whatsoever, which i thought i will. hahaha.
made quite alot of new friends instead.

ITE isnt as bad as i thought it will be. like you know, ahbengs ahlians shouting here and there. the people there, i wont say they are non-ahbengs,
but i feel like they're quite friendly actually. hmmmmm.

well, in new school new environment, made new friends and tried out stuffs ive never tried before. like riding a bike! ;D
ive got a classmate, 24years old, rides a bike to school everyday.
so for a few days after classes, he would ride me around the school compound with his bike.. hahaha.

i have to say im JEALOUS. argh, everyday i have to squeeze the bus to school whereas he can just VROOM to school and home everyday. ZZZ!
but yeah, i tried to ride another friend's bike too..its difficult, but im determined to have my very own bike soon..

okay, enough of trash talk, gotta go off..will post again soon!