30th may 08, certainly a day for me to remember..

invited lots of friends to my place for my bday party.

really enjoyed the company of you guys..

thanks for making my 17th bday such a memorable one.

love you guys lots.

received lots of presents too!

thanks felicia for the shirt, its very nice(:

thanks qh (and those who shared with him) for the slipper. LOL its very nice! hahaha.

thanks esther and jenny for the shirt too!

thanks weili, xueyi and agnes thanks for the spongebob boxers and shirt! :X

thanks cy and gang for the ORC figurine. wtf! LOL. thanks anyway, its nice.

thanks my dad for the fred perry t.

thanks my uncle for the new acer lcd flat screen monitor.

thanks my family members for the angbaos which total up to $200+

once again, thanks to everyone!

recently have been very busy with everything..

really need lots of time.

i really wanna buy time to do what i want to.

trying very hard to get back onto my feet again,

ever since i fell down on sec3.

i know my friends will be there to support me.

but i'll stand up again soon,

i'll definitely make it to poly some day.

i'll definitely get what i want some day.

give me more time, to prove myself again.
i'll never be the same person who gives up easily again.

thanks guys, for having confidence that i can do it.

really appreciate your care and concern for me(:

sometimes things are just meant to be.

if its not meant to be, no matter how hard u try,

it will never be.

the harder you try, the deeper the hurt.

theres never whether you're good enough for it,

only whether it will be worth it.

thanks delwin.

but i'll not give up.

i know it will be worth it.

i'll follow my feelings.

been a long post, shall go off already.

decided to open up my blog again! - -''

see you guys!

back from jeremy's house. his birthday party today.
well actually its yesterday but he hosted his party at his place today.
he's got the same birthday as jing^^

yesterday went to jing's bday party at downtown.
met up with cy, went town and get a beanie for her.
that ass delwin slept late and thus it ended up me and cy waiting DAMN LONG for him.
hahaha. jing's bday party is fun..
altho me cy delwin is the only 3 guys.
others are all her female classmates.
so ended up chatting non-stop till late night, around 1am and we cabbed to delwin's place.
went home in the morning.

woke up in the afternoon today and off the jloh's place!
jloh rocks lah! Lol.
many friends came and we had lots of fun..
jloh is rich and magniminous (is it spelled this way?) lah.
he always ordered lots of food, pizzas, kfc everytime we visit his place.
and HAAGEN DAZ! XD
his fridge is full of them. wow wow wow.
i dabao-ed 1 tub home with me too. hahaha.

so we cut his cake at around 9pm.
a big big durian cake.
taupok-ed him too. hohoho.
and of course, cake-smashed his face too. hahaha.
took a few pictures and shortly after that went home..
thanks for being a great host jloh (:

had a VERY VERY VERY bad experience today morning,
perhaps one of the worst ones in my life ever..
really hope it wont happen to me again.
for what i am about to type below, i am not exaggerating or whatsoever.
just want to share my experience with my friends
and give some advice on what to do IF it ever happens to my friends.

i remember woking up at around 4.50,
and thus i pressed by handphone to see the time,
and went back to sleep.
turned and faced the wall, and after 5mins or so,
i felt someone walking into my room.
expecting it to be my aunt or maid or whoever it is,
i ignored it and went back to sleep.
2secs later, i felt a very strong presence once again.
i was about to turn around to see what it is, when it happened to me.

i was paralyzed just when i moved my head a inch towards the door.
the ghost(which i am not afraid to say it is anymore),
surpressed by whole body and pin me against my bed.
my mouth was twitched towards my right side
and i can see from the side of my eye,
silverish cloud emerging from my body(which i supposed is my soul).

really wanted to shout and scream for help,
but my paralyzed body failed me, especially when i couldnt scream at all.
after 5 secs or so, my body and my mind was shutting down,
i was really really weak and desperate then,
and felt like my body is going to give me up anytime.
just when it is coming to the worst, i remembered saying in my heart,

"please leave me alone, i am only a 17years old boy."

and immediately after that, my body was free again,
and i immediately jumped off from my pillow.
i stared towards my door for around 10secs,
and finally gathered enough courage to walk to the bathroom to wash my face. went back to sleep shortly afterwards.

in the morining, my malay teacher said my face colour is very bad,
so i told him my experience.
he said in malay, it was some sort of wandering ghosts which i can sense his/her presence,
thus it attempted to suck my soul out of my body.
luckily, i was able to plead for its mercy and it let me go.

you may say its a cramp, a dream or whatever it is.
seriously, i may sound damn dramatic or exaggerating,
but this is serious, to all my friends, if it ever happen to you, remember to do what i did..
after this fucking experience i finally know,
why some people are so strong on their stand that ghosts exists in this world.

nothing much happen.. everyday same routine..
go school come back sleep go school again tomorrow.
but i'll just update for the sake of it.
recently having gay dreams.. for consecutive days.
i shall name some of them out (for those which i can remember).

got once.. i dreamt of me and my friends,
chunyong.. and some other random friends playing basketball,
on the third or fourth floor of a SHOPPING MALL -_-''
then play play play, chunyong attempted a layup,
and BOOM, he fell from the 4th floor, LOL.
and in the dream, it was very realistic lah,
i can feel myself trembling and so scared i dont even dare look down. LOL.

okay second one, i dreamt of me and my friends, chunyong AGAIN LOL.
we were playing catching, and out of nowhere came out this tower sort of thinggy.
so cy ran up to the 2nd floor to prevent being catched by me,
and BOOM, he fell from the 2nd floor again LOL!
and again, in the dream i was damn afraid to look down.
LOL.

cy must be damn sad, me dreaming of him dying everytime.
HAHAHA.
okay-_-''
dreams are gay.

long day tomorrow, shall go off already, bye.